Note: Liyana wishes you to participate in my toughts by submitting your own comments and thoughts, idiotic or otherwise.
L I Y A N A' S . T H O U G H T S
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Wednesday, November 12, 2003
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i've lost myself again.
these days, i just feel like walking
for eternity.
i'm in such a mess.
my thoughts, my feelings, my emotions
there are so many things i want to wish for
i always ask myself if i am happy
the answer may turn up no or yes.
lately.. its just a simple no or maybe.
what has happened?
i need to find a way from all this confusion.
are the changes in me really noticable?
there are days when i just can't stand the people around me
or there is just one person that i want to be with
just to pass time.
i was thinking the other day
about where i wanted to be in the next hour.
i just couldn't stand being at home arond people.
they are always calling me, searching for me.
asking about this and that
how i wish........
that the people who treat you good would continue treating you that way or better
that the people who treated you bad would have a change in heart and treat you better
that the people who treat you as non-existent would realise you are standing in front of them
that the people who take you for granted would begin to appreciate you
i feel like going to the beach to look at the stars
to hear the waves lapping
or to be at the airport to look at the planes taking off.
if only i can sleep soundly without worry
without lonliness
without sadness
without tears
if only i can pour out all this feelings and sort them out
pick the happy ones and put them in again
it just hurts..
really bad.