L I Y A N A' S . S E C R E T S


K O O K Y . G I R L
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.MY NAME.
Aimiliyana Shamsuddin

.BIRTHDAY.
15th December 1982

.SIGN.
Saggitarius

.I AM....
An obsessive compulsive who relish in organized mess, with a creative imagination and gets highly excited about purple monkeys.

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Wednesday, March 08, 2006
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Wish I... wish I was going too

Mood: Puffy Eyed

I've been crying the past few days.. dreading this day. Last night, I was already tearing at our taxi stand while he told me to take care of myself. I hugged him so tight while I secretly cried into his neck. I tried my hardest not to let my tears roll down but the dam just burst. I couldn't stop crying when the first tear fell and he just hugged me again. Taxis drove, stopped and then continued on their way again since their services were of no use.

We just stood there crying and promising each other take care..

Just now when I sent him off, his whole family was there. I turned down his mum's offer to take a family picture with the whole family. My refusal was mainly to the fact that I'm not family yet. InsyaAllah, one day. Even though I looked calm, i was crying inside. B will be away for a mth in cold Germany. I was fretting abt his food, his warmth.. Every minute that ticked by till he walks thru the gate seems so long and deep inside it could stretch even longer so he'd still be with me.

We didnt even dare to hold hands because of his parents. I was just scared that he's get reprimanded for it. By 10pm, he kissed his grandma goodbye, salam all his relatives, cried in his parent's embraced and hugged his gd friends tight. But at 10.15pm, we walked slowly to the gate side by side which felt so far apart. It was so heavy this feeling and we stood in front of the glass. He made me promise to eat properly and when he turned to face me, he told me not to cry. And he kissed my forehead and hugged me in full view of his family.

One final smile and he crossed the security line. He called me to the glass and kissed it before he winked and smiled. Thats my Khai. Thats when the dam broke again. Eyeliner ran, tissue floss on my eyelid and his Dad calling to me to say that he's waving. Goodbyes are really hard. 1 mth till he comes home..

I wish I was going too.

I'm missing him already


posted by AimiLiyana 11:59 am